Brother Hagan had already made arrangments for his death and one of them was that I preach his funeral along with his pastor. What an honor... I sure could use your prayers though. My dear brother Hagans funeral will be at one of the largest churches in the area. I don't know if it can be done without getting choked up with tears. I reckon I'll do it by the grace of God, but the largest congregation I've ever spoken to totaled less than 200. 10 times that amount is expected.
Yeah, I could definatly use your prayers in this.
Dear Timmy,
I continue to 
How my heart still is with you! Two pastors who have gone to be with the Lord left an extraordinary impact on my life. The first was the first pastor of the Baptist church that my parents and I began attending when I was 7 and during whose pastorate I came to know the Lord. He was like another father to me. His wife was our choir director and I called her Mama Dot. In fact, I guess I spent almost as much time at their house as I did at home. He had major heart problems for a long time, but his retirement and then death had a profoundly sad impct on me. I sitll tear up when I think about him.
The other was my pastor in college. I had not intended to change my church membership, centainly not as soon as I did, but when I first heard him preach, God said, "Dwan, this is where I want you!" I immediately moved my membership from the one with the pastor I just mentioned to that one. I could spend 5 minutes in his office and learn far more about the Word than I could in hours and hours of class. He also was a major theological stablizer for me in a time when very liberal theology (God is dead stuff) was touted as truel
These two men will never for long be out of my thoughts and never out of my love. So my heart is with you, my Brother. May His comfort be yours! And, by the way, guys can certainly have the privilege to cry! That's why the Lord made tear ducts! 
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There is nothing wrong with "getting choked up with tears" especially when doing a message like this one. I am praying for you my friend.
Thank you for that sis. Yeah, I agree on the tears thingey. Sure wouldn't want my tears to dry up. They are part of my testamony.
Pastor Tim, you are in my prayers, as well as Brother Hagan's family.
That's appreciated my dear sister.